Chapter 1250 - Night Market
Facing each other and sipping a glass of wine, Illness calmly thought.
(Seriouslyyyy, this is troubliiiiiing. I never thought it would be thiiiiiis difficult to control my emotioooooons.)
From the viewpoint of Kaito, Illness is handling the situation with a mature and relaxed attitude and seems calm and collected in this situation, but in reality, her innermost feelings are different.
Her words of a few minutes ago came from her heart, and even now, her mind is in a different state than it would be normally.
(Even when I suppress my desiiiiiires, they seem to come out without limiiiiit, and I cant help but feel repulsed at my own shallowness. Seriouslyyyy, I really dont know where these unknown feelings were in meeeeeee.)
Until she met Kaito, it hadnt been difficult for her to control her emotions. In fact, just controlling her emotions had never even crossed her mind.
Illness was always acting natural…… which in a way, proves that she was empty, but she was always able to spend her time flatly and never had any doubts or felt inconvenienced about it.
However, when she was with Kaito, Illness emotions moved much more than before, and she herself was at the mercy of them in a bewildering way.
(Maybe its becaaaaaause I decided to be more selfish than usual todaaaaaay Normallyyyyy, this time should have ended when we got back from the night markeeeeeet…… but the time I spend together with Kaito-sama is sooooo happy, so comfortableeeeee, that its hard for me to stop myseeeeeelf. Im even troubling Kaito-sama because of thiiiiiiiis.)
After the night market, she offered Kaito a cup of tea and went to the bathroom to wash his back, and even at this time of the night, shes still enjoying her evening drink with him.
(I should be apologetic to hiiiiiim, but seriously, how troubliiiiiing. All I can think about now is how happy I aaaaaaaaam.)
The reason why Kaito, who can sense emotions with his Sympathy Magic and is sensitive to changes in emotions, is unaware of Illness feelings of confusion is that Illness feelings of happiness were so strong that they overshadowed it.
Therefore, the feelings Kaito could feel from Illness conveyed through his Sympathy Magic were all such feelings of blessedness and joy, so he was unaware of the confusion in her heart.
(What do I want to happeeeeen What kind of person do I want to be for youuuuuu The me back theeeen would never have thought I would worry about something like thiiiiiiis.)
If her former self, the Illness before she met Kaito, were to look at her current self, she would be astonished from the bottom of her heart.
She has changed so much that she was convinced that no one would call her empty if they saw her now.
(Even though I should have been satisfied seeing you happyyyyyy, how mysteriouuuuuus. When I am with youuuuu, I realize that I, who havent changed oooooover the years, am changing more and mooooooore. Im confuuuuuused, but Im happy that I myself am changiiiiing, because Im sure its because of what Kaito-samaaaaa has given me.)
She was bewildered by her changing self, but she enjoyed the change and felt happy about it. Even the fact that Kaitos happiness being all that mattered to her and her own happiness being able to see his smile was gradually changing.
Her desire for Kaitos happiness became stronger, and although she hadnt yet been able to formulate her wish clearly, she began to hope for a future with Kaito.
(……Every time I talk to youuuuu, every time we spend time together like this, I feel more and more in love with you. Soooooo much that I cant feel any limits……)
Thinking of this, Illness took a sip from her glass and looked at Kaito sitting across from her, and as their eyes happened to meet, she felt a warm heartbeat in her chest as Kaito smiled at her.
[What is it]
[If theres another opportunityyyyy, may I invite you to an after-meal drink agaaaaaaain]
At Illness words, Kaito looked surprised for a moment. As far as their relationship was concerned, even though he had invited her before, she had never invited him out for anything.
Thats why, Kaito was a little surprised when she said that, but he immediately nodded with a bright smile on his face.
[Yes, of course…… Im looking forward to it.]
Illness inner self, which is changing little by little, is also being expressed in her facial expression, and seeing Illness smiling more happily than usual, Kaito blushed a bit.
Even then…… It wasnt like it was just Kaito……
(……Seriouslyyyyy, how troubliiiiiing. Its not that its unpleasaaaaant, but when it comes to Kaito-samaaaa, I really cant control my feeliiiiiings…… Even though tonight should have been a peaceful niiiiiight, my heart is beating a little toooooooo loudly.)
Serious-senpai : [This is hell, an everlasting sugar path…… D*mn it, is seriousness doomed to be sugar-coated in the face of this series……]
: [No, like I said, can you stop making up words Im getting irritated with how those made-up words fit so well.]-